Where to start. well 13 class days left!! WOOHOO!! :)
It's been awhile, however I don't have much to discuss about me...nothing new here, just school kickin my booty like always.
In the last week, friends of mine have been hit with life changing news...no they are not preggers... worse. A girl friend of mine found out her dad has cancer, I felt awful when I heard this news. I could never imagine getting news like this about my mom or dad and hope to God I never do. That's when it hit me, life can change in an instant... I will never take my life for granted ever again, nor miss opportunities for family time. Family is my rock, and strength when I need picking up. I tell my parents everything, and don't hold anything back. I couldn't imagine not having that type of relationship with them. They are more my best friends if anything, but parent me as well. I could never not have that in my life.
Then the second sad story came, a dear friend of Mark and mine's dad passed away Monday night. This man was one of the greatest men to ever walk the planet. Since the day I met him I always received hugs from him from there on out at all of the baseball games or at Mark and Tyler's apartment. Tyler's parents were all about family, and support. Mark and Kathy never missed a DMACC baseball game, they treated every boy on the team like one of their own children, they were never biased towards one player or another, they supported, cheered, encouraged every single player to be there best. Mark was a devoted father to Tyler and his brother Austin, never missed an event of theirs. I can recall so many times Skyping with Tyler when his dad would call on the phone, and Tyler would give me the 1 minute symbol with his finger, and they always said "I love you" before they got off the phone. Tyler loved his dad deeply, this I knew because you could see it, and he expressed it. So many people grow up to not be close to their parents, and dream or wish to have a relationship like theirs. I can only express my heartbreak for Tyler, Austin and Kathy. But mostly I want everyone to know how great of a man Mark was. He lived each day as if it where his last, he always had such a positive outlook on everything even when things would be bad, he found ways to support everyone and encourage them to not give up.
As far as their goodbyes went, they never got to say their final goodbye's, this breaks my heart, and makes me cry every time I think about it.
I don't ever want to hear the news that my mom or dad has an illness, but I would much rather hear that then get a phone call late at night that one of my parents passed away unexpectedly, when someone has "time" to live, you get to say EVERYTHING you have ever wanted, repair old wounds, and create lasting memories. But when someone dies unexpectedly, you are left with.... "I wish....." and that would be even worse. As far as Tyler goes, how do you find the words to say to a dear dear friend who has been there for you for so many stupid dramatic events in my life, to now flip roles and support him in such a devastating loss?
Words don't do a justice, but I know he knows I am always here for him, however it sucks because you just don't know how to exactly "help". However note to EVERYONE, when someone I love deeply passes away, please do NOT ever say "STAY STRONG" how can you tell someone to stay strong, when it is completely acceptable and normal to not be strong, to break down ball your eyes out, punch walls, break things....to feel pain. Let people loose it, let them be weak, let them weep, don't tell them to be strong because being strong is the last thing they are thinking about when in such a horrible situation. So please don't ever tell me to be "strong" because odds are, I won't be.
My lesson for this post is for everyone to know how great their life truly is, yes you may fight with someone you love, with your family. But in the end love is what keeps people together, they could be gone tomorrow....don't ever take the love and support you have for granted. LOVE deeply, risk everything, and never go to bed angry with someone you never know if you will get the opportunity to say "I'm sorry" or "I love you" ever again. So make sure you tell people how you feel.
Cherish the life that you have, if you are unhappy, fix it. You only get one life to live.
Have a great night,
Kayla
